On a daily bases I thank the Lord through the good & bad. At any given moment I give Him his due praise but over the last few days, I find myself sounding like an old southern women, “Thank you Jesus, thank you Jesus, thank you Jesus” every few minutes, I just can’t help it!
My eyes just filled up with tears and I said it again…
For a long time I was controlled by fear. Fear of not being good enough, fear of not having enough, fear over my finances & my marriage.
After years of trying to juggle both fear & faith, I finally got to a point of such confusion & anxiety that fear had finally won. I was exhausted from carrying the burdens of life & constantly worrying.
Today it feels so good to know that Jesus saved me from that! He has restored everything that the enemy tried to take away from me and I can’t help but to thank Him!
I’m on a family vacation & just one day away from my normal daily hustle & the Lord has already showed me this: Although I may no longer be drowning in fear, I’m still not fully trusting Him. I went from worrying to working my butt off. Working so many hours, up until all hours of the night, my “fear” was just in disguise. Not taking a day off to spend time with my husband & children or drive 30 minutes to see my mother & grand-parents because fear made me believe that I had to constantly work non-stop to provide for my family.
What a lie! Lord I want to trust you & I’m so thankful that you’ve showed me the truth!! As I played with the girls in the pool today, yes I got my hair wet, I promised myself not to let the enemy rob me of my time with my family any longer!
God is the giver of time and money and it is only by His grace that we have it! I trust that He will continue to provide & give me the opportunities to spend these priceless moments with my family. Thank you Jesus, thank you Jesus, thank you Jesus!! 🙂
Shalena…your message couldn’t have hit more home with me today! Thank you for being a voice of reason to me! I, too have found myself in fear of missing the too-important call, or not returning an email in timely enough manner, or not getting the plans to the client at the speed of lightening. In return, I’ve been missing out on precious time with family. I almost sacrificed an invitation to see my brother tomorrow night for all the work I have looming. But since reading your post, I’ll put my fear and worry aside and visit with him tomorrow evening. Thanks for your message. God has worked through you to reach me today. xoxo
Good for you… God is so good! thank you for sharing this with me, I wish you all the best!
Many blessings my sista. I am so happy you have found and I pray that you continue to hold on to your inner peace. We miss you guys!
i too have been walking in fear…but my fear was somewhat the opposite of yours. i lost BIG when i stepped out on faith to start a business. i KNOW i need to get back in the game, but fear is trying oh so hard to keep me from moving forward. one day i’ll say i’m going to make that move…then i’ll retreat back for fear of failing again. but it’s like you said…i’ve got to trust God COMPLETELY. thank you so much for sharing!
Keep moving forward and trust in the Lord with all your heart and rely not on your own understanding. Fear is the opposite of the great faith that I know you have. Be blessed! Thank you for visiting my blog and sharing.